Pete Duel

Immersing myself in Alias Smith & Jones Slash fiction, I found myself remembering the day I heard about Pete Duel's suicide. Curious as to the reasons why this talented young man killed himself in the early morning hours of December 31st, 1971 I went to investigate all I could. Some suicides no one ever figures out, and I can't say I have here...except that with the depression he seemingly suffered it is clear that he could not rise above it. It's a sad, tragic ending to a young man who had so much going for him both in talent and desire to save the ecology. I sit here and finally am mourning, close to 38 years after he died, but I understand why he must have needed to exit this world. Sometimes I find myself wondering what the point of this world is for if all we do is hate each other and go to war and push religious beliefs to the extreme. What's the point? Where is this God that is so full of love and why does he play games with us? What's the point of being human if all we do is lower ourselves to our base nature? Looking out for number one, ignoring the other people in this world and then 'fighting for a righteous cause'. How can killing and war every really be righteous? Sometimes I sit back and ponder these things, hoping that there is a reason for it, but lately...I'm beginning to wonder.
No worries. I'm not beyond the point of no return where Pete ended up, but...it does make me wonder what all this is for. What he must have seen around him...what pushed him to put a gun to his head and pull the trigger...I just wonder if he wasn't a soul born out of time, for we sure could use his voice today.
God and Goddess bless you, Petey. You were an amazing soul in my opinion and you are sorely missed, even now.